I needed to move out of that position and into a different position and it wasn't the job, same organisation but it wasn't the job that I'd hoped it would be.
And I truly began to lose myself so I doubted everything that I was doing, that I was experiencing who I was and experiencing emotions that I'd never experienced in my life.
Welcome, I'm Peter Williams and for the past 10 years I've been connecting with thousands of people from the stage and online to help them discover the importance of spiritual and energetic practices so they can thrive with confidence, clarity and purpose.
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I'm welcome back and obviously I've been joined by the beautiful M here today and I have to admit I actually owe quite a bit to this lovely lady because you were the one that reached out to me.
I was, you're in a first right time.
Look, I talk about like the energy, the manifesting and I love this like you know so everyone if you're listening and tuning in or you're watching, strap yourselves in, get a good cup of coffee.
This is going to go left, right, center up and down, upside down so bear with us because we just, we can chat for hours.
But it's really interesting because there's going to be a lot in here and hopefully you'll be able to take quite a bit from this episode and learn a lot.
I love this because M prompted and reached out and what it was, it was a beautiful nudge and sign from universe from me because I have to admit I was sitting on some ideas and whatever else and I think like anybody else you do going, oh is it going to be good enough or is it going to be something that people want or you know you do go through the what-ifs but I have to admit and I haven't told you this.
I'm intrigued.
No, it's like what's interesting is that you know when you set an email and when it hit the inbox, I literally went like this and like Sandra saw me you know my assistant she's in the chair and she's like what and I was like you need to read this and she's like, she read it and she's like no way because we were literally talking about it like not like I don't know how long before I can't remember now but I know it was like really hot off the press kind of conversation and then that email just slides right in and I'm just going she's in my head and I just, oh look it was great but then the weird part was for me I was like I'm looking up gone oh come on you know it was just that whole moment but you know and so what that's relating to is obviously having a go at and obviously creating the Accelerator program which I'm happy to say like I said you were a real push and a real inspiration to kind of get it going and we're going to have a real good discussion about the journey and obviously for you as well so getting into this and where have you been, where do you come from, what was the push, what was the reason for this email walk us through that because I still actually don't know.
That's a really good question Pete, I think you know my prior experiences you know like many of us we've gone through the pandemic or you know some of us still believe in we're in the pandemic to a certain extent and for me I've always been in the helping area so even as a kid in school you know I was the agony aunt so I even had my own page in school to deal with people's relationships really strange anyhow.
What?
Yeah I know as a kid like I would have been 8, 9, 10.
How old?
8, 9, 10.
9 or 10?
Yep absolutely and I was known as the agony aunt so the agony aunt.
I've never heard that question.
Must be very English.
No okay okay well that's a British part of me.
And anyhow so we you know we've been through this pandemic I've been you know very on the ground with the team that I was working with at the time and I got to the stage where I was doing some work for myself some you know neuro linguistics so I'd actually started a course in neuro linguistics and have moved into the master's stage and the guy I was doing this through was talking about having a spiritual coach and was actually saying oh you know I've got the spiritual coach and I connect with them and blah blah blah and I got to the stage of thinking I think I need to do something because I'd moved from one position that I'd been for five years decided I needed to move out of that position and into a different position and it wasn't the job same organization but it wasn't the job that I'd hoped it would be and I truly began to lose myself so I doubted everything that I was doing that I was experiencing who I was and experiencing emotions that I'd never experienced in my life and would go as far as okay just just be let's quickly hold up there because yeah emotions that you'd never experienced can you elaborate I would love to know what what you really mean there absolutely so I was experiencing anxiety overwhelm complete sort of I like this real fogginess of who I was the anxiety would be getting to the stage where I didn't want to look at emails when I was at work particularly from certain members of the team I would doubt everything and question everything I was doing and I'm thinking there's something really not right here and all the time I kept hearing my trainer in my head saying spiritual coach spiritual coach and you know I followed you Pete since I landed on the Gold Coast in 2015 and oh wow there you go 2015 I've been on some lives like your facebook lives etc yeah yeah and you were the first person that came to mind and I'm like okay I wonder I just wonder if this is something people do hence you then got the email saying hey just wondering yeah yeah and well let's just yeah well that's me like I've got the shirt on and everybody's saying that saying that it's the spiritual PT shirt you know I call myself more the spiritual PT rather than the coach it's like the personal trainer that's that's what the PT means everyone if you just if you see me walking around or you see videos and you see spiritual PT it's personal trainer because it's like it's it's not just coaching it's it goes a little bit deep and a bit more than that but yeah but that's okay so that's where it kind of came from and obviously just that prompting in the mind and the memory kind of talking about that that's interesting though because it's like I love that because I know those experiences where it you know it's like a beautiful kind of voice that you know yeah and you kind of do confide and trust in go there's something in that I know that all too well but it's interesting out of like obviously what you're going through and that's me I love that and thank you for like sharing because it's not easy to recall those kind of moments where obviously high anxiety your debt yourself and you know overwhelming that kind of thing but it's like when you're doing that it's interesting the correlation I'm just interested where where like it is like even for me I'm actually genuinely curious because all of these particular feelings now I've been spiritual my whole life and I've you know like as you know I've adapted since I was you know teenager but so that's for the correlation for me would be a little bit different that's why I'm just trying to understand the mind here is like so you're going through all of this either having these high real heightened sense of emotions but then this thought about like spiritual coach or spiritual what was the correlation and when you're thinking this or in your kind of tap in this and even reaching out right I don't know will you did you have an idea of possibly how like a spiritual angle would help or what what's what was happening there what's the thought process I think for me it really was about understanding and getting back to who I was because I really felt I was lost I wasn't the person that I had been you know maybe five years ago type thing and and I relay a lot of things back to my dad now despite a very difficult relationship at times my dad was always the one that kept me very grounded and whilst the rest of the family have been amazing you know my hubby and the kids and my mom my dad was always the one that would just call it for what it was and I didn't have him anymore I mean I lost him unfortunately he died to COVID so it was this whole so yeah and it was just this whole case of holy heck who do I talk to you know and probably you know a lot of the time I do recall dad what the hell wherever you are sort this out so potentially there was that coming from him as well this is this is what you need to do you need to get back to who you are you know and truly who you are and so it was knowing that I needed to get out of here out of the head and back into you know really back into my heart and even into the gut to some extent and I felt the only way that potentially was to do that was through the spiritual work through with yourself or you know somebody but you know you were you were my first my first call thank you no very great it was like I said it was just it was meant to be the way it was and but I think it was like it was a beautiful thing for me like I said it was very divinely planned I would say because it was I was I knew even myself and I know that you're in this position even leading into all of this like you know when there is you know like what you're living or what you're doing it's it's okay it's nice it's not necessarily that's not necessarily bad or it's not negative but you go there's there's something more there's something more and I can't put my finger on it and but whatever else and that's what I loved about it when you did reach out that was where I was at and I was like I knew but I confessed hand up I was sitting on it and a good old my middle name and my you know procrastination yeah yeah I'll look Pete procrastination Williams came out to play that day but you know but it was a it was a beautiful thing and but I'd love to know too like obviously you went through then this is a big thing because you know I've spoken a lot of people I know and obviously I've had the privilege of being around and obviously going around a lot of places talking a lot of people on it is a common occurrence you know a lot of people are taking a lot of stuff on and I love that and I think that's a huge thing for you to recognize to even acknowledge what that thought because that's that's a huge one to start with because so many people just dismiss that but not only that then to act on it that's huge to actually reach out that takes guts and that all that takes takes a lot of courage and a lot of vulnerability go hey some help yeah it's not okay so I think that's a huge thing and like I love the fact that you did because it's a huge huge thing but to get to that point because it is there's a bit of a gap here like you know and there always is for people it's not just like oh okay I'll reach out now it's it's as you know it's not that easy but for our listeners and like people who are kind of maybe still stuck in that original position of where you were of like anxiety overwhelm what was what's the thing like obviously you had the thought but what were the other things there that were prompting you or kind of pushed you and nudged you to to make a change or want to make the change I think a lot of it was down to the fact that I knew this wasn't me and I knew I knew I needed more I needed probably a bit of a kick up the bum to to push myself you know we call that the spiritual bitch flap that's my that's the one I'm good at that I'm happy to hand them in because you know I got to that stage of of just sitting and thinking there's so much more to life that I can see for me but if I don't make this move then when if not now when good question and you know I do tend to be a bit I am very stubborn I'm get my dad's trait although my mum will say she's stubborn as well so don't really win either way you definitely got it there no yeah but I'm also I'm also a rip the band aid off type person so I am one of those that once I got you know and was having maybe a better day than I had the day before it was this case of oh just I can do this excuse my language but just that's okay we can get that out of there let it let us all go that way we get to be happening later on um this is this was a case of you know you've you've got to move forward you cannot allow yourself to sit consistently in your head you need to get back to being into your heart finding your true self again and letting the pain that I was experiencing actually work for me rather than against me so truly understanding what that pain was and utilizing it as a learning mechanism now that makes a great segue for the next question because I love that you've mentioned that so it's interesting and it is it's a powerful thing because I love the message that Spirit gave me some time ago and this is a big one it's a hard one for people sometimes to understand and it's the fact that like Spirit always said we don't want you to experience pain however it's the only time that you meaning you in terms of humans will stop and listen yep absolutely and it's a powerful powerful thing because it's we stop like really kind of moving forward and we end up just kind of stopping but I love the fact that you're saying you wanted to turn this pain more into your power now how did this happen for you where did this kind of tick over especially in like the program that we went through what was what was the thing so we're almost looking at is was this a an aha moment for you and take us through or was there a particular like moment where you're going that's helped me a lot where is that for you yeah the aha moments and there were multiple of them I think I realized quite early on that you know some of this pain that I was experiencing was the fact that I had lost my dad I didn't have him to talk to and I hadn't allowed myself to have the space to recognize you know him being in the UK when he died obviously COVID we couldn't travel so there was all of that you know sort of resonating with itself but I think you know one of the biggest aha moments for me Pete was I think it was on session five when I had been making some reference to I'd actually stopped doing a lot of the things that I was doing in essence to move forward and my progression and I remember you saying if you don't you know let go of work now hand it over this is stopping you I remember there being comments in the chat this is stopping you actually being who you are and what you want to be that was a massive moment for me of going holy smokes okay I could still tell it is because you're feeling that right now I'm watching you I'm watching just if you listen on the actual podcast like you know M's really going for the upper chest and the lower throat and because that's where at all it's the heart and the communication and aligning those two when we instinctively go for that but I love that because but you're now going and intuitively reaching for that area but as in of it's I can see you're most like caressing it yeah it's it's not like protecting it you know it's yeah no you're not actually but it's just I love that because what a beautiful change because you're there going you know I can see you genuinely in that moment that recollection of that memory recalling it and going oh and a realization yeah a definite realization and I think you know I then had got that fortunate experience of being a crew member and being part of quite a big event that was occurring and spending time with a number of people who all had the same ilk if you like you know we're all of the same design we all come from that heart space generally knowing there was no judgment in that space very much like our little family and being told every day you know people wanted to hug you people wanted to high five you and being told every day you know I love you I appreciate you by a crew director these are all strangers very much like our little family we're all strangers and it's like why is this not happening in the in the other world and that was major so the two together were really major aha moments for me and I just remember you know somebody grabbing my hands at the end of that particular weekend and saying what's next I'm resigning that was it and I love that because I can so see you going no hesitation going I'm resigning but it's like and it's interesting when you actually said that out loud to that stranger yes you're like it isn't a weird how what you sometimes we say that the most really kind of important moments of your life to strangers it is a weird thing but it's like when you said that to the stranger and it obviously just rolled off the tongue going I'm resigning what were you feeling going through that what was because that's me that's a big moment it was a massive moment and I just I felt so I almost felt like a could float away a bit like a helium balloon I wanted to laugh I think I did laugh um but it was just we can't I'm giggle it with you now just thinking about it you know just this oh my god I'm actually doing this and and in my head I could hear you this is not helping you you know this is stopping you from moving where you want to go and it was like no this is this is right this is the right thing to be doing in the here and now for me and this is exciting so now I love that see let we go back a couple of months now and it was it you know let's let's mean this let's be honest it was far from exciting it was far from exciting yeah it was because you were in that space you were going I don't know what to do I just know something's not right I know I need to work at this and it is interesting too because this is would you say that before I started the journey you like you did say you were lost but the hard part is too is like when you do feel lost you don't even know where to begin absolutely it it was and and as I say I've never experienced these feelings of anxiety overwhelmed to the extent that I did you know with anything that's ever gone on in my life previously so this feeling of lost was just so bizarre it just didn't narrate in my vocabulary and then it's this whole well how do I even start to unpick and unpack where's the beginning I don't know is it in the middle somewhere do I need to you know how do I how do I almost zoom out to to be able to be that third eye to to look back in and and see what's going on so yeah completely don't know yeah it's almost I describe it like the the yarn of wool you know it's because it's so like you know it's all and when you see them and go oh that's beautifully packaged and you kind of go they've done very well and you start to wonder going how do they loop this like this to make and still make it all look beautiful right and then it's like the when up but with us humans like but where's the end you're like the middle in there like it takes forever to get towards you know I'm peeling back the layers but you know we're kind of like an onion like an onion it is it always is um you know or we could take the shrek moment here and go cake why don't people talk about it like cake every time we hear the onion I can't help but to think it's shrek and the donkey it's like an onion no one likes onions he makes you cry yeah and we did that but look let's face it it is unfortunately this work is a bit more like an onion rather than cake because you know there's a few tears along the way you know naturally like you got to that realisation around what you were doing was no longer working for you it was you know wasn't the answer was there any other kind of surprises along the way where you're going I would never have thought this was connecting to because it's interesting because like you're here in the moment of going I'm feeling lost exciting overwhelmed and now you're at a point guy I love it because I'm resigning and I feel like a healing balloon and I want to laugh and I giggle and you feel weightless like the weight had come off you it was a huge you know even when you said that it's just like you could hear your your body language is lovely floated up yeah it was and I was like oh you know but it's interesting like you know so you know getting to that point but were there any other kind of correlations that you experienced where you're kind of like wow I that kind of surprised me there's a link in there that I would never have even like anticipated or or been able to it wouldn't come into your head but did you have any of those I think in the beginning when we first started working you know really connecting in those deep dive moments so thinking about you know really having that head heart gut space and where was it all connecting to having those moments of really you know taking back going back to your memories going back to those whatever that was that first memory that really sort of hit and then spending time and thinking actually maybe it wasn't that I think it was further back than that and recognizing you know where my pain point had come from at that stage to get me to who I was you know at sort of five years ago so those are hard moments and you know I think we all come with this amazing belief network that isn't necessarily always ours and that just trying a bit like the Arnawool again it's about trying to untie and unpack all of that and create something very beautiful from it whatever that looks like yeah well it is like realistically and this is mean this is this is a big thing that I do talk about with people and we've we've spoken about it a bit of length as well and the whole thing is we come in as a blank slate yes like we do we've got a blank brain we've got a blank body the whole you know thing and then it just so happens then we get things added to us you know we're like a really good low cost airline you know here's your basic package there's a seat on the airplane and the answer is like here's your meat suit when you're born here's your little package here's a little meat suit all the rest is going to cost you and you know somewhere down the line but it is a beautiful thing too because you know what you're talking about there is kind of delving into that and acknowledging those things and sometimes going further back is that when you start looking at going is and what people sometimes misinterpret or don't understand is we are actually making decisions in the moment this is really this is trippy it's hard one follow me here people is you'll make decisions about your future in the present based off past experiences now when we really break that down and as you've discovered and I remember some of them because you were there going I didn't realize it's going that back because I remember you had to do it a couple of times you went back about three times one of them yeah and you're like I didn't realize it's going further back it's going further back but it's amazing and it's you look must look back on that and go wow like I have been basing a lot of my decisions based off this one moment in my life definitely but what would you say is like you know now that you've worked on that do you feel like you have been given some level of I don't want to say freedom because it's really because it's more like an acceptance but how would you say like now understanding it how does it help you it helps and I think it is a sense of freedom to some extent because it is about for me it's about understanding that some of those belief patterns and systems like you say we arrive in a meat suit and that is it and then everything else is you know comes to us from friends from family from you know the media from what we all that sort of stuff and when you start stripping that back and realizing who you truly are for me was it's like this whole okay I understand now better who I am my inner child has revealed herself again which is just hilarious and I say hilarious because she's a bit of a fruit cake to say the least but it's also according to me to me she's a bit no no you don't do you just like just say free spirit I think okay um but it's it's it's very liberating I think is is a great way of describing it because suddenly it's about recognizing who I am who I want to be moving forward what I can do with the new me moving forward and also the impacts on the relationships that I have you know not only sort of generally speaking but more directly with with Chris and with the boys and how our relationships are completely changed to a lot of extent even after this very few weeks wow beautiful yeah yeah and it's it can pretty I love that and it's I loved how you said this like it's you know how it's going to prepare you like it's pretty future self and whatever else so let's let's get in because this is this is where I the hard work is the hard work but it is amazing because once you like you said now I think it was a beautiful choice of where their liberation in a sense because it's like oh wow it is a recognition and then it is it's like it is a bit of a liberation it's because it's a recognition and they're moving on from it and but you take it with you at the same time so where does this now place your future with now knowing yourself now this version of yourself this kind of you know more free spirit not the fruit cake the inner child this free spirit wet with all of this where so take us through because it is it's a journey and a half and this is why I love it it's inspiring you've gone from massive anxiety and overwhelm to you know kind of going this is not me I don't want to look at emails and then get into a point that I really don't want to even leave the house and go to work because it's just so overwhelming to now I put my hand up and residing to a stranger and finding this self so what is in store for this new version of him what is in store and I think you know it is again it's about how how I see myself what I can do how I can be here to serve others and utilize my skills and really be genuine and authentic which whilst I've been like I say in the helping profession for a number of years you get that organizational taint to some extent and that possibly stops a lot of authenticity coming out I see that in practitioners and so being who I am now I can be genuine and and truly authentic with people what they see is what they will get they may well get the inner child that you know the free spirit that decides to just why not and why wouldn't you exactly but I love that because and you know I think it's a great point to make because we all and so many of us and I know so many of my listeners here too would all understand because we're givers we are very much the givers we want to help we want to be off-service to others and you make a good point because when we do that but we can become so like tainted like you said but almost we can be start to fit into the mold of what other people are telling us or expecting us to be which unfortunately we start to lose ourselves or the other way around that look at it is almost like you're saying before is when you start to fall into that pattern that's an a layer being added to your onion and not necessarily a good one because we learn those things from it but I think it's a beautiful thing that you've learned to come back to yourself and your authentic self and you're going to show up and be of service to others in that way and so you should be and I love it because I love seeing you smile like you are now because I know you're excited about it your energy is so different you feel so like energised you feel so free in that sense and excited for the future and that's exactly what it was and I have to admit I have absolutely loved working with you over that I can't thank you enough for the email because it's been amazing.
Yeah it truly it's been an amazing journey and one I'm truly grateful for I'm you know so grateful to hear that it was the email that sort of pushed you to do this because it's it was it's such a safe and supported arena to have been in and you know we are a little family and that's that for me as I you know say when when people do connect I think you know rather than then oh I'm acquainted to them or I'm a friend of them we are family of different types you know we might not be blood relatives and all that but generally speaking we do come together and we share some very vulnerable moments and why wouldn't you want those with family.
And the other thing too is and it's all helped everybody kind of go take those layers off start come back to the extent and I just love it because you're now going to be that authentic self.
Yes.
Being out there helping more people honestly guys watch this space because M is going to start to shine and if this spiritual PT's got anything to do with it she definitely will because I'll be watching making sure that you get yourself out there and do the job.
No but that's awesome but again M I just wanted to say thank you so much for taking the time to jump on and walk us through the journey and again thank you for being you know open and willing to share the journey because I always find that these journeys are inspirational for others because I know there's other people out there listening that might be going through it and you know it is just remember guys that there is choices there and you know you can have it I genuinely believe it and just be willing to choose you.
Yes.
And I think that's a big thing and I love it and you did you're here and it's going to be the sky's the limit now the sky's the limit.
Absolutely the sky is the limit.
I love it.
Again thank you so much and I loved having the chat with you and I can't wait to work with you more in the future.
Fantastic looking forward to it Pete thank you so much.
